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found out the hard way that my eating plan I was on wasnt right for me. I have a form of ulcerative colitis that makes me constantly constipated so I had to accept the fact that unless I stay on a very high fiber diet that I will be sick. so today is day one of my high fiber eating plan. I cant always feel sick and stay constipated. sucks but this is my fate. so today is day one of this diet. I need Gods help to stay on it. I can do it though. Its kind of a bonus that I hurt like hell if I dont get all my fiber in. It makes it easier to stay with it.

I figured I could afford it and I deserved it. Emotionally I just didnt feel up to it to tell the truth. I actually hate my job. I signed up for individual counseling yesterday for myself. I hate so many things about my life. Its obvious my 19 year old son is resisting changing himself for the better so I got to get it to help me make the right decisions in my life to change me for the better. Im the past I would of felt so bad for calling off when I wasnt really sick that I would of binged over it. I remember doing that in the past. But not today. its day 11 and I havent fallen off the wagaon with my eating plan. Im proud of that.

just because our bodies arent perfect doesnt mean we arent still attractive to the opposite sex. remember be proud of what you have. dont hate your bodies no matter how much you want to lose. if you are not in constant pain and you have workable pieces on your body then you are blessed. still everyone has room for improvement. Im so proud I been on my eating plan for 10 days now. Im getting stronger everyday. Its getting easier the longer I go without falling off the wagon too.

these were triggering points today but I made it through without going off my  eating plan.  Tomorrow I wont let myself get so hungry by eating more in the morning and noon time. Ill also take a good book to work to read for when Im bored silly. Ill try to get enough rest and not run myself too hard without the proper rest. doing all this will make things easier for me tomorrow.

I made it through saturday without blowing my eating plan. Now today will be a big challenge too I know its the most important thing to me to make it through today so Ill just concentrate on this. its hard so hard but Ill do it and become strongerer each day that I make it.

the weekends when I dont work are definitely the hardest days for me to keep on my eating plan. I guess cause I dont have a routine in place and its easy for negativy thoughts to get into me. It seems like its so hard to even make a decision for me even. But regardless I just have to do it. just do it. that makes sense. The weekends will get easier for me the more weekends I can make it. Persistence is the key.

The most important thing to me is to stay on my eating plan everyday. no exceptions. its hard but I am making it my number one goal everyday. I am proud at how well I have been doing this week.bye

I completed day 6 without going off mu eating plan again. I did the best I could in everyway in my life today. It was hard and I was tired. I worked very hard at my job. I was going to go to calling hours tonite for my friends husband. I was too tired but I intend to get to the funeral tomorrow.

sticking to it. day 5. persistence is the key I was told by someone who lost a lot of weight. this is my plan to keep on it no matter what. that is the number one thing of importance to me.

day 4 on my eating plan. It was easier than yesterday was. I felt better about myself. I had lost 2 lbs since day before. I wasnt craving carbs like crazy all day. I didnt feel all depressed and disappointed in myself like I did yesterday. the longer I go the better I will feel about myself. I have played this game withmyselg so many times before and this is one of  the times I am going to lose weight at my goal weight and keep it off.